The Valentine

“One Wonderful Day”
It was a pleasant evening that day. We sat on the shore and watched the waves whisper with the tides. We held hands and talked our heart through. It was now or never. We had come a long way in the highs and lows of our long distance relationship and though we kept pushing each other – at the end of day, we survived. Twilight was dawning on us and the chilly sea breeze made us move closer. Our emotions were flying high. I still don’t know how it actually transpired – we kissed and with that one kiss, the umpteenth number of times we fought washed away with the wave. It was such an emotional surge that I proposed her without any forethought. She stared at me with a disbelieve and then after what seemed like an eternity, she smiled and said yes in the most inaudible way ever. It was a wonderful day.

“One Dreadful Day”
She was leaving. We were at the railway station. It was the final time we would be seeing of each other. I didn’t know it then and I believe neither did she. We hugged for a very long time and could feel shreds of tears on each other – who knew it was only the beginning. It was downright painful. How a petty fight led to that dreadful day where the monsters within us woke up and suddenly we noticed a different version of us. The green signal was lit and the train was about to leave. I didn’t want her to leave. Not just yet. Things could have mended – there was still time but our alter ego had the last laugh. We didn’t even say our goodbyes and just like that, she was gone. No words were spoken.

“Today”
As the sun settles down and the wind gushes in, I feel liberated but sadness engulfs me in. I am truly content in my heart that she is happy with someone who understands her more than I ever could. Yet this undying thought of what we could have been makes me yearn for her every moment. All these years and I always end up in – “Could we would have turned up like a fairy tale story with a happily ever after ending Or lost ourselves while fixing each other with the cruel realities of life dwelt in?” – I guess I would never know. But I do know this – the past is long gone and I should move on. I can’t or may be I don’t want to. I am lost in the oblivion. What thrives me is knowing that someone somewhere is beside her. To support her, to not judge her, to heal her deepest wounds and to love her unconditionally. And that’s how a true valentine should be. She and her beau.

Happy Valentine

Wish

I wish
you could read
the infinite letters I wrote
my deepest darkest side exposed

I wish
I could apologize
for the abuses I hurled
for the numerous lies I told

I wish
I could mend
the shattered pieces to a whole
lend a shoulder to console

I wish
you could perceive
that I have suffered enough
and I am truly done to dust

I wish
I could tell
how much I missed you
and not yet ready to bid aideu

I wish
you could see
my vain attempt to confession
‘See you on the other side’ of inception

I love you. Always and beyond.

Happy Birthday

Wasn’t our first meeting little similar to the end scene of the movie ‘500 days of summer’ ? – A boy meets a girl. Awaiting their turn for the job interview. They talk for a jiff. Something sparkles between them. Boy gets called in and is rejected. He leaves without bidding adieu. He regrets and comes back hurriedly. Asks her number and the next thing they know, they are celebrating her birthday after three days. 

It’s been exactly 2 years to that day. It was the beginning. The beginning of something surreal. I was so nervous and I know you were too. We were in that water park celebrating your birthday, listening to one another, trying to understand the mysteries of life, of what we desired to achieve and the places we wished to explore. And somewhere between that long conversation, we travelled to a future of unknown and hoped one day, we would fix each other and be our definite in search of the infinite. 

Often I used to hear, love never happens at first sight. But there we were, in the cab ride back home, and you had leaned your head on my shoulder. I was overwhelmed by the immense trust you put on me, whom you had just met a couple of days ago.  As you were next to me, somehow my years of loneliness and sobriety just evaporated into thin air and I felt this gush that I wouldn’t be alone anymore. 

I asked you if meeting one another was just a coincidence or was it meant to happen?. The affectionate way in which you held my hand, looked at me with that concern in your eyes and spoke, was indescribable. I just couldn’t write in words the loving warmth which I felt. What transpired between us was very special, so special that I was remorseful and selfish at the very thought of why you were taking that job, why you had to be thousand miles away from me. We had just met. It was only the beginning. There were infinite stories to be told and long walks to be strolled.

We tried. We failed. And all that’s left are the beautiful memories. But, maybe, that’s the truth of life – Sometimes, we meet a person for a short period and we ought to make the best of it – Sometimes, we build a million memories and survive to live in it – Sometimes, we have to let go of the person whom we love so dearly – Sometimes, somethings are never meant to be no matter how much we feel it was meant to be.

Thank you for being born. Thank you for being the person you are. Thank you for all those unforgettable memories – one of which is being the muse for this story today.

 Happy Birthday!!!

The Phoenix and Dove

From the valleys and beyond
A precious story to be told

Of despair and hope
Of an angst and love 

Two wandering souls once meet
Neither to stay Nor to part

They pursue for the infinite
To be fixed in other’s definite

Disappointed, fallen and lost
They end up in each other’s throat 

Days turns into months and ages
Memoirs turns hazy in cages

One to rise from the ashes
and the other to mourn the beloveds 

From the valleys and beyond
The phoenix and a mourning dove.

Memoirs of Past

She smiles and wonders where they went wrong, as the memoirs of past flash away

Drenched in a pool of her blood, she bids him a final kiss before it all fades away

Lust

It wasn’t love but a fervor lust at their first sight

Seductive prowess eyes enchanted a fore-sight

Here’s to you

As I wander through this abyss of separation
Emptiness haunts me and I crave for some affection

You were a drug to me and I was addicted to the very core
So blind I was in love, its after-effects are still very sore

No, I am not complaining about your deceit and lies
Instead, I am grateful to you for making me feel alive

The stories we shared and the infinite kisses we stole
Embracing each other and the long walks we stroll

Those funny moments of farting and making stupid faces
Memories we made in plenty to last more than our ages

Our love was wonderful and for-a-long time it will linger
Thank you for the wonderful moments, wish it had lasted longer

Gosh! It may take years to forget you completely
All thanks to undying love and its bitter-sweet-symphony

I still don’t understand why you did this to me?
When ‘Let’s always be together’ was what you always told me

Nevertheless, I forgive you and wish you happiness forever
With these final words let me adieu, ‘Goodbye My Lover’

Remembering You

Nine years it has been since you left for the heavenly abode
Not a day passes by, without you crossing my every thought’
 
Sleepless nights I have endured besides the agonizing tears
Hugging my teddy bear tight, I gaze at that twinkling star
 
There were many-a-times when I felt like dying – to be with you
Oh Mother! Not only did I lose you, I lost my world along with you
 
I find myself wondering If Almighty punished me for something
He took you away and left me alone when I was just sixteen
 
With whom should I share these feeling of sorrow and loneliness
Sometimes I come by your grave to say these very emptiness
 
Look Ma, Your little girl has turned big in all these vacant years
I hope you have been watching me from somewhere’ up there
 
Please be my strength and my guide for what lays ahead in future
The past journey hasn’t been easy – all I need is love and nurture
 
‘Remembering you’ every moment and feeling your presence everywhere
Dear Mother, I love you more and more even if you aren’t really here

The Something Else

Some feelings are hard to express
And some better left unexpressed

Happiness with no bounds is what I feel
Life with you rolls like a movie reel

It’s like the sense of a beautiful beginning
You and I – I wish there will be no ending

Like the fluttering of the beautiful daffodils
Our friendship blossomed – an emotional journey uphill

Deep inside my heart, I cry a fear
Why can’t we name this, eyes pour out a tear

Though this may be wrong, yet it feels so right
Fate brought us together, let’s make it bright

The something else it is – like something so surreal
Then I see your enchanting smile – and it’s definitely real